03 April 2007
i don't know what took me so long, but here i am.
Mehlbach's always lecturing us on how to maintain balance in our lives. I don't always think he's brilliant, but a lot of the time I do, and I think he's right about this: we need to keep things even. We have more than enough intellectual stimulation; in fact, we're overwhelmed by it. The problem is that no one bothers with the idea of being physically active or letting ourselves be spiritual.
I know this sounds like a conversation you don't want to have with your grandmother, but think about it. I can't think of a time I feel better than when I've just been exercising; there's nothing more satisfying than being in shape. And I don't think you have to believe in God or in anything else, necessarily, to be spiritual: all you need is a sense of self. I'm not sure who I am, but I'm getting an idea of who I want to be, and after all these weeks of being miserable I'm beginning to remember what makes me happy. I don't really know what it means to be "spiritual," but I guess I can figure that out as I go.
I'm figuring out that if you stay busy, you don't have time to think about the things that bring you down. Everyone's been saying it all along, but it's hard to think about keeping busy when you don't even want to open your eyes.
But I realized that if I don't wait around, I can't be left behind.
Over and out.
I know this sounds like a conversation you don't want to have with your grandmother, but think about it. I can't think of a time I feel better than when I've just been exercising; there's nothing more satisfying than being in shape. And I don't think you have to believe in God or in anything else, necessarily, to be spiritual: all you need is a sense of self. I'm not sure who I am, but I'm getting an idea of who I want to be, and after all these weeks of being miserable I'm beginning to remember what makes me happy. I don't really know what it means to be "spiritual," but I guess I can figure that out as I go.
I'm figuring out that if you stay busy, you don't have time to think about the things that bring you down. Everyone's been saying it all along, but it's hard to think about keeping busy when you don't even want to open your eyes.
But I realized that if I don't wait around, I can't be left behind.
Over and out.
4/03/2007
