30 October 2007
♥ there. i said it.
Quite often, I find myself bitching about my various exes and, on occasion, wishing I'd never met them. But today I'm feeling rather optimistic, and hating people I once cared about seems far too exhausting to be worthwhile. So, for once, I'm going to be positive. Please don't get used to it; I'm not sure if I can muster up this kind of big-picture thinking today.
To the ex who taught me that giving up will never get you where you want to be: I may wish now that you didn't exist, but there was a long, long time when I was really glad you did. You taught me how to grow up, you taught me how to fight fair, you taught me that sometimes, when you really love something, you have to hold onto it until there is literally (or legally) nothing left to hold onto, and for that, I will always remember you, for better or for worse.
To the ex who taught me that sometimes, there's nothing sexier than hanging out in your sweats: Things aren't always rosy with us, but then, things aren't always rosy in life, either. You taught me that when you really love someone, it's okay not to worry about looking your best. You taught me that I could be beautiful no matter what I was wearing, even if that didn't include makeup. And, perhaps most importantly, you taught me how to move on and forget my past, and, ironically, that's why I will probably think of you every now and then for the rest of my life.
To the ex I started talking to as a last resort: I think you're whinier and more self-pitying than anyone I've ever met, but then, I tend to do those things, too. I hated you for three years and then, suddenly, I realized I needed a prom date, and that was the stroke of fate that brought us together. Despite your shortcomings, you're talented and funny, and you taught me that sometimes you really can get past your first impressions of someone and find a whole new person in there.
And to the boyfriend I know I'll never forget: You make me feel like it doesn't matter that I have a past. You make me feel like I am all the things I wish I was. You make me feel like I'm smart, funny, beautiful, like I'm the whole package, like I'm everything you could ever want. When we fight, it's that much better, because I know this is for real. No matter what happens next, you've taught me that just when you're ready to give up, sometimes, when you're lucky, someone stumbles into your life and makes it worth living again.
To the ex who taught me that giving up will never get you where you want to be: I may wish now that you didn't exist, but there was a long, long time when I was really glad you did. You taught me how to grow up, you taught me how to fight fair, you taught me that sometimes, when you really love something, you have to hold onto it until there is literally (or legally) nothing left to hold onto, and for that, I will always remember you, for better or for worse.
To the ex who taught me that sometimes, there's nothing sexier than hanging out in your sweats: Things aren't always rosy with us, but then, things aren't always rosy in life, either. You taught me that when you really love someone, it's okay not to worry about looking your best. You taught me that I could be beautiful no matter what I was wearing, even if that didn't include makeup. And, perhaps most importantly, you taught me how to move on and forget my past, and, ironically, that's why I will probably think of you every now and then for the rest of my life.
To the ex I started talking to as a last resort: I think you're whinier and more self-pitying than anyone I've ever met, but then, I tend to do those things, too. I hated you for three years and then, suddenly, I realized I needed a prom date, and that was the stroke of fate that brought us together. Despite your shortcomings, you're talented and funny, and you taught me that sometimes you really can get past your first impressions of someone and find a whole new person in there.
And to the boyfriend I know I'll never forget: You make me feel like it doesn't matter that I have a past. You make me feel like I am all the things I wish I was. You make me feel like I'm smart, funny, beautiful, like I'm the whole package, like I'm everything you could ever want. When we fight, it's that much better, because I know this is for real. No matter what happens next, you've taught me that just when you're ready to give up, sometimes, when you're lucky, someone stumbles into your life and makes it worth living again.
10/30/2007
