03 May 2008
♥ what more can we do?
I don't really know what to say, but I also feel like I have to acknowledge this. He is our coach, our teacher, our friend. I don't feel like I can say "was" because I still feel like he's there. I half expect to see him at school on Monday, laughing and teasing like he always was.
But there's more to it than that. I simply can't bring myself to believe he would do something like that. That's not our Jon. Our Jon is funny and smart and works hard at everything he does.
Then again, I have been in the position of being the girl nobody believes, the girl everyone thinks is making it all up. All I can say is that I don't wish that feeling on anyone. At some point, you start to second guess yourself, and it doesn't matter anymore that you're telling the truth. It is the loneliest feeling in the world.
Maybe these girls are telling the truth. I hope not, because I don't want to believe it. But if they're lying, where does that get us? Jon is out of jail, but his reputation is ruined. He'll never teach or coach again, and for someone who loves his job as much as Jon, what punishment could be worse? Girls who lie about things like this have no idea the repercussions of the chain of events they're setting into motion. It goes so much deeper than the immediate reaction. Next time somebody reports something like this, it won't matter if she's telling the truth: nobody's going to believe her.
So where do we go from here? I can't imagine worse timing than this. More than anything, I'm just sad. I'm sad that Jon is in this position, and I can't decide which outcome will be worse. For now, I guess all I can do is be glad I knew the Jon I did.
But there's more to it than that. I simply can't bring myself to believe he would do something like that. That's not our Jon. Our Jon is funny and smart and works hard at everything he does.
Then again, I have been in the position of being the girl nobody believes, the girl everyone thinks is making it all up. All I can say is that I don't wish that feeling on anyone. At some point, you start to second guess yourself, and it doesn't matter anymore that you're telling the truth. It is the loneliest feeling in the world.
Maybe these girls are telling the truth. I hope not, because I don't want to believe it. But if they're lying, where does that get us? Jon is out of jail, but his reputation is ruined. He'll never teach or coach again, and for someone who loves his job as much as Jon, what punishment could be worse? Girls who lie about things like this have no idea the repercussions of the chain of events they're setting into motion. It goes so much deeper than the immediate reaction. Next time somebody reports something like this, it won't matter if she's telling the truth: nobody's going to believe her.
So where do we go from here? I can't imagine worse timing than this. More than anything, I'm just sad. I'm sad that Jon is in this position, and I can't decide which outcome will be worse. For now, I guess all I can do is be glad I knew the Jon I did.
5/03/2008
