29 June 2008
♥ my family can be really annoying
but also, at times, really, really amazing.
6/29/2008
23 June 2008
♥ tell me what to do
I'm so in love
[whoa]
I'm so in love with y o u
6/23/2008
22 June 2008
♥ being an abercrombie 'model'
pretty much means standing around. It's kind of boring.
6/22/2008
19 June 2008
♥ my friends are dropping like flies!
I hate change.
6/19/2008
18 June 2008
♥ well that came from left field.
I totally didn't see this coming, and now I am totally stuck in the middle.
6/18/2008
17 June 2008
♥ i think i need another job.
This week I work 4.5 hours. I need $882 to fix a car. These things don't seem to be really compatible.
6/17/2008
16 June 2008
♥ like a pirate!
I can't wait to raft down the Colorado this summer, preferably after a night of camping and carousing with the people I've known and loved the longest.
6/16/2008
15 June 2008
♥ i have
the worst luck in the world.
6/15/2008
13 June 2008
♥ in the words of my beloved boyfriend,
6/13/2008
♥ ...whoa, kelsey.
I'd swim the ocean for you...
This blows.
6/13/2008
12 June 2008
♥ here i dreamt i was an architect
It doesn't really feel like summer has started yet and I can't figure out why.
6/12/2008
11 June 2008
♥ i probably won't leave this up for long.
1. You're not as cool as I thought, and I am rather disappointed.
2. You, on the other hand, handled it brilliantly. I'm proud of you and I admire that you remained cool and composed where I would have been hotheaded and ineloquent. And for what it's worth, I'm really sorry for all those things I said to you last year--you may have dodged a bullet in the long run, but I still feel bad for being such a bitch.
3. Thank you for being there no matter what. Most people would have run out on me by now, but it's been almost a year and I can still call you anytime, day or night. You're a lot more wonderful than you realize.
4. This is going to sound really cheesy: I can't believe you're leaving, but I know it's not the end. I don't know what the future holds for us, but I can't wait to see what happens next.
5. This is embarassing, but I don't really even know where to find your destination on the map. That makes it seem even more impossibly far away, and I can't even find words to tell you how much I'm going to miss you.
6. I feel sorrier for you than ever, because you just keep spiraling downward. Leave us alone; leave all of us alone.
7. I'm so glad I never have to see you again.
8. I'm really sad that I'll probably never see you again.
9. Let's be honest, I'm still really mad. You should have known better. The worst part is, it's not even true.
10. I'm glad we could pick up where we left off. Thank you for letting bygones be bygones, even though I didn't really deserve it.
2. You, on the other hand, handled it brilliantly. I'm proud of you and I admire that you remained cool and composed where I would have been hotheaded and ineloquent. And for what it's worth, I'm really sorry for all those things I said to you last year--you may have dodged a bullet in the long run, but I still feel bad for being such a bitch.
3. Thank you for being there no matter what. Most people would have run out on me by now, but it's been almost a year and I can still call you anytime, day or night. You're a lot more wonderful than you realize.
4. This is going to sound really cheesy: I can't believe you're leaving, but I know it's not the end. I don't know what the future holds for us, but I can't wait to see what happens next.
5. This is embarassing, but I don't really even know where to find your destination on the map. That makes it seem even more impossibly far away, and I can't even find words to tell you how much I'm going to miss you.
6. I feel sorrier for you than ever, because you just keep spiraling downward. Leave us alone; leave all of us alone.
7. I'm so glad I never have to see you again.
8. I'm really sad that I'll probably never see you again.
9. Let's be honest, I'm still really mad. You should have known better. The worst part is, it's not even true.
10. I'm glad we could pick up where we left off. Thank you for letting bygones be bygones, even though I didn't really deserve it.
6/11/2008
09 June 2008
♥ to the scum of the earth:
You can tell everyone whatever you want, you can make up lies, you can call me a liar, it doesn't matter. I can't say it doesn't bother me when it trickles down the grapevine and I hear what you've been saying about me, but what it really comes down to is this: your greatest fears have been realized, and you are exactly what you were so terrified of becoming.
You are your father. It's been a long time coming; the signs were there all along. But now, as though being a lying, cheating womanizer weren't enough, you have abandoned your high-horse "morals" and begun doing the very thing you've always abhorred, the thing you've long patronized others for doing.
The difference between you and your father, for whom I have more respect for than you might think, is that he has a reason to be the way he is. What do you have? Nothing that countless other people haven't managed to live through, and managed to remain functional.
People may choose not to believe the truth, but the truth remains. I did not lie. I would never voluntarily put myself through the trauma that followed what you did to me. It doesn't matter who "believes" me and who doesn't. A judge in a court of law certainly believed me enough to grant me peace of mind in the form of a restraining order, to which no innocent person would have readily agreed as you did. The people who matter to me know that I told the truth about what happened on that awful flight, and I suppose there's no accounting for taste where your minions are concerned.
So say what you want about me, but know this: I can always, always take the high road.
You are your father. It's been a long time coming; the signs were there all along. But now, as though being a lying, cheating womanizer weren't enough, you have abandoned your high-horse "morals" and begun doing the very thing you've always abhorred, the thing you've long patronized others for doing.
The difference between you and your father, for whom I have more respect for than you might think, is that he has a reason to be the way he is. What do you have? Nothing that countless other people haven't managed to live through, and managed to remain functional.
People may choose not to believe the truth, but the truth remains. I did not lie. I would never voluntarily put myself through the trauma that followed what you did to me. It doesn't matter who "believes" me and who doesn't. A judge in a court of law certainly believed me enough to grant me peace of mind in the form of a restraining order, to which no innocent person would have readily agreed as you did. The people who matter to me know that I told the truth about what happened on that awful flight, and I suppose there's no accounting for taste where your minions are concerned.
So say what you want about me, but know this: I can always, always take the high road.
6/09/2008
06 June 2008
♥ employment!
This job is infinitely cooler than any of my previous endeavours. Plus I am more likely to use my 30% discount at Abercrombie than I was at PetsMart. I can't believe I worked at PetsMart.
6/06/2008
03 June 2008
♥ in light of a number of recent events:
In my experience, it is difficult for two people to stay faithful to one another for any extended period of time. I have been cheated on by nearly every boyfriend I've ever had, and I'm sure there are plenty of times I don't even know about. (If you are privy to this kind of information, please note that this is not a solicitation for stories about the escapades of my various exes: please don't tell me; I don't want to know.)
I don't really have any regrets; after all, I suppose it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved, and yadda yadda yadda. It's a funny thing, though, cheating. It is often unexpected by the cheatee (as opposed to the cheater, you understand), almost never the result of much forethought or planning by any party, and invariably causes suffering and heartache for one or more of the parties involved.
So what I'm wondering is this: in this time when everyone seems to be cutting corners, is it possible, I mean really possible, for two people to love and trust one another unconditionally? I'm beginning to think that perhaps monogamy isn't a possibility at all, at least not in this generation. I suppose it's because we're young and not sure what we want, but where does the line become blurred? When does someone decide that what they want right now, right this minute, is more important than the love and trust of their significant other? I can vouch for the fact that no feeling is worse than the sinking one that sets in when you realize you've been cheated , and I can imagine that the guilt caused by cheating does something awful to a person as well.
I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. I guess all I can do is take care not to be the cause of that kind of pain, and hope that in this age of infidelity, someone else is thinking the same thing.
I don't really have any regrets; after all, I suppose it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved, and yadda yadda yadda. It's a funny thing, though, cheating. It is often unexpected by the cheatee (as opposed to the cheater, you understand), almost never the result of much forethought or planning by any party, and invariably causes suffering and heartache for one or more of the parties involved.
So what I'm wondering is this: in this time when everyone seems to be cutting corners, is it possible, I mean really possible, for two people to love and trust one another unconditionally? I'm beginning to think that perhaps monogamy isn't a possibility at all, at least not in this generation. I suppose it's because we're young and not sure what we want, but where does the line become blurred? When does someone decide that what they want right now, right this minute, is more important than the love and trust of their significant other? I can vouch for the fact that no feeling is worse than the sinking one that sets in when you realize you've been cheated , and I can imagine that the guilt caused by cheating does something awful to a person as well.
I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. I guess all I can do is take care not to be the cause of that kind of pain, and hope that in this age of infidelity, someone else is thinking the same thing.
6/03/2008
02 June 2008
♥ so true.
6/02/2008
01 June 2008
♥ testing 1, 2, 3
I am pretty excited about the prospect of blogging from my phone, but readers be warned: this may mean an increase in the number of inane,"I hate waiting in line" kinds of posts, and also a lot more impulsive, "did he REALLY just text me AGAIN?!" posts, also. Just so you know.
6/01/2008
